Sunday, May 16, 2010

Motivation

I used to love running. It was in a word, relaxing. There was nothing like a run in the crisp morning air, my ipod blaring and all my frustrations melting away. For me running was better than therapy, I could clear my mind and the world always seemed a little brighter after. Then I quit... it wasn't a conscience decision. I just stop having time for it and before I knew it the thought of running was scary, overwhelming and flat out exhausting to think about.  
I had always said I would work-out during my pregnancy, that I was going to be that healthy momma. But when you do not plan on the pregnancy a lot of your best intentions become just that, an intention that did not happen. I walked a lot and that certainly helped my delivery... I pushed all of 15 minutes ((fist pumps the air))! But then he came and life took over and I did nothing. Not a damn thing for months and now at 10 months old, I am seriously disgusted with the reflection in the mirror and embarrassed that I don't own clothes that fit.
I have talked a lot about doing Weight Watchers, signing up for Boot Camp, etc. Guess what? I haven't done a thing but run my mouth. Apparently I need a motivation so I found it.  Besides the looming bathing suit season and I want to be skinny enough to sport a bikini again, I needed something to get my butt in gear. If I have learned anything this past 10 months is that I need to exercise. It is my magic weight loss secret. I can eat a lot or not I am not going to gain or lose weight but if I work out, if I move, it works I get skinny. Well, I hope because I used to be skinny and I used to work out.
My motivation is my wedding dress, a beach, a setting sun, my husband in a white linen suit and a photographer. I am going to retake my wedding photos. Why would you do that you ask? Because I HATE mine. I think they are terrible, it rained so it ruined my hair, the sun was grey and honestly my photographers just didn't live up to their hype. My hair was matted by my veil and no one told me. That along with a few other issues, I look at the pictures and I honestly get mad. Every girl has their wedding dreams and one of mine was to have an amazing picture where I look the best I ever have with my husband staring at me with serious love and lust and have it big in my house. I want my daughter (if I have one) to look at it and say "Mommy was beautiful" the same way I did when I looked at my Mom's. I would just stare at it for hours and dream about my day.
So here's to running again I am a week into it and if it kills me I am going to renew my relationship with running and get myself beautiful so that I can put that dress back on and get a fantastic photo or two.

8 comments:

karma-dee said...

Retaking wedding pics is an amazing idea - great motivation! It rained on our wedding day and I'd love to retake ours someday, too.

Heidi - D said...

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Diana said...

I love the idea of the new wedding pics! It is hard after a baby to get motivated - so many things get in the way, keep you sidetracked or just plain exhausted. I understand. You can do this though - this is a great community and we're here to help you!

Kellyanne said...

WOW, great idea about new wedding pictures!

I tried running a few weeks ago. I really wish I could run. When I started my 1st run, I felt awesome, like a pro..I think a 3yr old could have passed me. Heck, I thought I ran for 30 minutes, and when I looked at the time, only 7 minutes had passed.

The next night my husband and I took the dogs for a walk, and I thought I would "show off" and run..Well, my run speed, was him walking normally.

Keep us posted on how you're doing with your running!

nicolesspirit878 said...

Oh I'm sorry your pics didn't turn out the way you wanted, I understand the importance of great wedding photos. I wish you all the best in your running goal and hoping you look great in the retakes and I want to see them posted!
Thanks for the comment
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LeeAnn said...

Oh my gosh that is so sad about your wedding pictures. :-( I hope that you are able to retake them and get some that you are happy with.

Good luck with your weight loss. I know all to well how it is to not like what you see in the mirror...and I do a lot of talking too.

BTW...your little boy is a cutie and I absolutely love his 3 month pic on your sidebar!

Nic said...

I hear ya on the wedding photos. We had a ceremony (to appease our family and my desire for the big white dress) almost a year after we prego-eloped and I HATE the pictures. Hate them. I didn't even print any because I couldn't stand to look at the horror. My daughter was 14 weeks old at the time and all my pregnancy weight went straight to my arms. Strapless wedding dress + flabby mom bat wings = HORRIBLE.

I can't wait to see how your new ones turn out. :)

Bigg Samson said...

I apologize for using my super wang on you honey, but i thought you were the prettiest bride in the world thus making me the luckiest guy on earth. I continue to feel like that because you make my life that much better everyday. I love you.